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I didn't finish my dissertation today, and I feel awful.
It's like the end of the world, and it's the first time in my life i give up to be a writer.
(How many lonely night I have to suffer?)

And also PhD.

very lonely and awful.

I have to write in English, but the words just don't come up my head.

It's different when I write in Chinese, it always starts from a sentence that 'touched' me, and I driven by it, then I just concentrate to finish my game.

Now, sometime I just empty, the music of Chinese stops and that's it.


It is good when you read some good articles in English, you feel you catch the meaning more 'authentic'.

But, writing....especially I have to be formal!!