Yesterday I felt blessed on the way home.

The weather is so nice, I keep thinking about EASTER.

If Christmas is the 'support' to help people through the winter, Easter is the celebration of the Spring.

If you have faith in Christianty, you will be touched by the beautiful spring at the same time confirm the meaning of the resserection of Jesus.

Nature, beatuy, God, showered me at 7pm, 11,04,2007

Even yesterday I still stuck by my assignment, feeling no way out.

Now is better, I have the rough structure of the essay, all I need is start.

I feel today very special. there are some coincidents but I forgot now, but I feel really need to write them down on the way to the library.

I almost want to give up today, now is 16:42 and the library is going to close @ 7:00, which means I only have 2 hour a bit more time to do something about my assignment of 'social psychological foundations of counselling psychology'

The waitress in the vegetarian restaurant seems remember me, I wonder how she perceive me?

I do feel shy and a bit intimidated when I go to restaurant alone.

There is food on the counter ready, their names on the board back of the counter, you can order. Although now my English is better, but the waitress is staring at me so I feel I need to make decision quickly, so I said: 'I want this' (pointing to the food does look too strange)

then is about the salad ...

There is cooked vegetable behind the counter I want to order as well, so the first time I also order it. But I found the waitress gave me the salad(raw) already with this dish.

ok, I don't know there is salad doesn't mean I don't want the cooked veg ....

The second time I order, the waitress told me there is already salad with it before I order my cooked vegetable...

Today, cool things happened.

After I said: 'I want this one'

She told me the name of the dish: Moussaka. (Ok, at the same time I notice this word is just in front of me on the board on the wall behind her.)

Then I didn't say anything, I know I will have salad.

But then she explained, this dish will have salad with it but if I want to order the cooked vegetable? (she also point at it)

I said:'Yes'.

Bizarrely, I image maybe she think about me when I wasn't there, or even she think about me when I wasn't there and stoned.

Why?

Because she became more understanding, and it is a vegetarian restaurant.

There is always a certain smell in a vegetarian restaurant here. (here means Manchester, I've never been none-Chinese vegetarian restaurant anywhere else)

I forgot the smell of the vegetarian restaurant in Taiwan, do they have the distinctive smell other than the smell of a restaurant?

Italy and Chinese restaurants are smell differently.

Then is about my superstition.

I felt hungry 1 hour after I have lunch, and I suppressed it.

After a while I think of the last time the same thing happened turn out I had a one month flu.

I became scared, but also doubt myself that maybe it's just my laziness prompt me to stop studying.

I don't know, I north node is at Sagittarius so I need to trust my sixth sense.

Now i am here, at the computer room writing my blog.

I don't know who will read this, maybe noe one, I hope this writing is helpful but now it became a bit drag....

bye.

I was a good Christian

Here comes 2007, I need to write my conlusion of my dissertation and I dreamed about one of my female professor in Taiwan.

In the dream I want to cry, because something I want to talk to her.

Mainly about the religion I felt in UK.

What in my mind in my dream was a sense of continuity.

She was a religious Christian like me, but then in the name of philosophy we gave up. (My another reason is gay issue. )

Studying philosophy makes her 'universal', I think, like musicians, scientists, or sportsmen/women.

Studying psychology makes me keep thinking about the history.

I became a Christian is under the 'condition of possibility'

China encounter Western culture, usa's power after WWII, my gaze toward a romanticised 'better life' created by usa's mass media.

The experience of seeing the church in Britain is a profound sense of being in HISTORY.

It is quite a contrary of my religious in Taiwan.

I was introduced to a semi-Methodist church by a family which is babysitting my brother and I.

Then I became more involved because an organisation called campus fellowship.

The church experience is mixed with summer camp, group therapy, and salesmanship. And all is very American style.

1986-1994,

I am a religious bird. I pray for people I know everyday, I went to church more than 3 times a week, I teached at Sunday school, and sometimes I mediated that God's plan is carried everyday, every moment, very teleological.

I talked to that femal professor I want to create a theory bridge over Christianty and our culture when I studied philosophy in the university. She said I am liked the she before.